Lynn Forbes expressed herself in a lengthy Instagram post six months after the death of her son, Kiernan Jarryd Forbes, better known as AKA.
She explained that her heart has a big hole in it and that she has been learning to live with loss.
“I’ve always believed that my heart was big and spacious with many rooms, to accommodate many people. These days I often feel like where my heart used to be there is just a big hole in my chest, without space even for myself.
“Grief is not something you get over, it never ends. You just learn to live with it and grow around it. And in the moments when it feels like the band-aid is being ripped off the healing wound, you start all over again … until the next time and the next time and the next time …”
Lynn says boldly that she is not okay and is fine with it because she is not attempting to be a strong woman.
“In the meantime, I’m ok with not being ok, not being a strong woman and ok leaning on those who allow me to grief on my own terms, while holding my hand and quietly walking beside me as I find my way.”
“I accept that grief is an element of who I am now, that it has altered my entire being forever and that I don’t have to get to the other side of it.”
Followers who read her note send her a great deal of love.
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